Day 274 - To Be Completely Honest I Died

In a dream just like this one

I fell to the floor in a heap

Eyes wide for the very last time

As I entered my eternal sleep

The light you see is not my soul

It is only the lamp's reflection

I have gone off on my final adventure

Without a single earthly recollection

The blank stare that you see there

Is the look of the peace I found

I flew away unseen, my eyes green

As my human body fell to the ground

Day 143 - Mind Maze

Locked into horrors you cannot know

Every piece of my soul distorted and aged

Mottled beyond repair from long ago

Wishing my demons could at long last be caged

And yet they still hover over my head

All the redeeming thoughts remain unsaid

They once lingered on lips of red

But have since faded to varying grays

If only she had not completely misled

We might have made it to another phase

Instead I am left pulled apart into pieces

Until what I know of this world ceases

For now I cower to pull away

From all the terrifying possibilities

As threads of life begin to fray

One of the many tolls and fees

That come with dangers in the mind

The most treacherous and painful kind

Day 61 - Forever the Waiter

Forever the Waiter

I see you leaving and my vision begins to blur

I still think of reasons why you should stay

But instead you go off in search of her

The one who left you during a rainy day

But that is alright for now there is sunshine

So you and she will last awhile just fine

They stop and stare as you and I part

It is a phenomena no one understands

For you were the boy after my own heart

Together we were seen always holding hands

But now astride your bike is only one

As you ride off into the proverbial sun

I am trapped in this moment even years later

I have turned into the lost lonely one

The one in those films, forever the waiter

Never the lover with looks to stun

Just the friend and cautionary tale

Of the times when love can fail

Day 45 - Hush

Illumination meets the darkest of nights

When all else reflects off the pool so clear

This is one of an array of sights

That should bring you right her

For with you by my side we would be whole

Connected both in body and soul

Take a hint for the quiet view

We could gaze at the stars forever

All it is missing is you

If you come we too will be together

Like the water brushing the concrete

Your presence here would make me complete

Day 44 - Hotel Curtains

Hotel Curtains

Gaze off into the morning's light

Shake of the moments from last night

They only hold memories of sweet caresses

And longing strokes of your lavender scented tresses

There was not some greater meaning hidden deep inside

Just sweet nothings in our ears, because my love we have to hide

Hide away from all the things they said we could be together

For one day you and I shall go and then be alone forever

No light will shine in to paint your soft breathing

Shadows now only hint at that leaving

Our hotel nights are only fantasies

Now is the time for realities

Day 38 - Drawn to Die

Drawn to Die

I live a simple quiet existence

Not much of it calls for persistence

I am silent and all-seeing

I need no words to describe my being

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She lives without much to say

Or so I assume anyway

After all if she was meant to speak

I would have given her a mouth between each cheek

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If I tried to express who I am

You would only consider me a lamb

I would rather you took me for sharp

Than for the hands on the harp

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Her existence is quiet, barely there

Yet formed with the utmost care

Surrounded by messengers she dare not lead

Her honesty is far too difficult to read

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I do not know what it is that I should state

Except that soon I shall bide farewell and dissipate

Scrubbing away all that I knew with a few strokes of pink

I have no true meaning or so the artist tends to think

Day 18 - Cold Crow's Nest

Cold Crow's Nest

If you draw in closer, you can feel the love

But I am looking in from too far above

I have no invitation so I wait way up here

You need not see if upon my cheeks lay a tear

Why will you not bring me down from the sky?

I am so lonely on my perch way up high

He put me up here and left me a tired solo

But now I cannot find another place to go

It is cold and quiet I cannot hear you sing

In fact I am deaf to nearly everything

The growl of your engine as heat rises in clouds

I am wishing I could be spinning within those crowds

You could speak to my entire soul

All the pieces you could make whole

And yet I stand too far away to see

Are you ever going to search for me?